Whose far away?

The last few nights I have needed to post this and I am just now getting around to it, I apologize to anyone reading this who may have been looking for another blog.
I've had a different vision the last few days since I have really tried to bear down and focus on bettering my relationship with Christ and seeing where He would lead me. Its a tough process because I find myself getting caught up in material, worldy, things instead of what God wants to be doing in my life. Recently I have been listening to a lot of "Far Away" by Lecrae. It started out as just a song to praise God with while I was working out or running but once I started ACTUALLY listening I realized that Lecrae is saying that so many times God seems so far away to us but He's not!
I tried to apply this to my life as I was listening to it on repeat for about an hour and fifteen minutes the other day in the gym and I kept thinking of times where I feel like God isn't by my side, I was quickly disgusted with myself. I thought of plenty of times where something was going on in my life that I felt like He wasn't there pulling me through it, by my side, with me, etc. Numerous times where I didn't put my faith that He was who He says He is. The more I thought about why this was, I came to this conclusion. It isn't that God is "far away" because He promises He will never desert us, it is US who are "far away" from God. WE are the ones that separate ourselves from Him, I do it every day. I put so much focus into things that aren't God centered and that is what separates me from Him all the time. At YL Work Week earlier this summer we were challenged to think about God every 15 minutes, I STILL have not been able to do it for a full day, not even half the day probably. Why is it so hard for me to think about the creator of the universe, who knows exactly what He wants for my life every 15 minutes?! Seems ridiculous I know, that I have such a hard time with something so simple as thinking about 1 thing for just a few seconds. Just a new challenge that I could really use and maybe will just continue to further this falling in love process with God. Much love everyone